Sat, 05 Feb 2005 16:05:29 GMT

i finally find something good in life. something i want. and yet it still makes me feel horible. but i'm not living my life according to others anymore. from now one i'm acting on how i feel. and for once i know how i feel.

<3

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 04:24:29 GMT

fuck all of you seriously.

murder me, now.

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 01:27:50 GMT

i'm done writeing in livejournal, for awhile at least. i just feel like a different person, and this livejounral crap is just pissing me off.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 14:48:15 GMT

" you're so last summer "

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 18:04:59 GMT

this is the last time i think i'm going to write in here. i just wanted to write one more thing.

i honestly think that everyone really needs to just chill the fuck out. sorry if you all have this big problem with me. people changed, or as britt says i changed. whatever. friends drift apart, it's part of life. your true friends are the ones you hold on to and will always have by your side. i'm just beginning to see who is a true friend to me and who is a complete joke. i just think it is so pathetic how fake everyone around here is, and if people want to say i'm fake go for it becuase i know they will. people can say all they want. the fact that i used to think we had the best group a friends, and the very first chance i got to sit back and look at us, and see that we have a pretty fucked up group a friends, beduase it is all based on lies. and that's the exact reason i got away from everyone, or at least tried. i miss the times we all used to have, of course i do. i think we all know they were fun times. but face it, a lot of friendships were just a joke. i'd much rather have the true friends i have now, and have a hell of a time with them. i still care about everyone and miss them, whether you like to think that or not. but whatever. this year i have too many promises i have made to myself to waste it with all this fucking drama. it's a waste don't you people see that. it doesn't matter, the little fights don't mean anything. just get over them. get over everything. it's not like i want all these friendships back becuase too much has been messed up already. but is being civil that much to ask for? come on were a bunch of high schoolers acting like 8 year olds. and i think most people know who i'm talking about. i have done the same. and i'm seeing it now, and i realize it's a waste. were all human and make mistakes, so get the fuck over it.

goodbye.

Thu, 06 May 2004 17:16:56 GMT

i've decided.
friends only.

&i'm not a failure, i swear.